I’ve grappled with this idea all week. Initially I thought of doing something big for myself or having some me time. That would be the easiest way to show myself kindness, but that seemed like an obvious and easy way for me to be kind to myself. I wanted to dig deeper.
I’m hardly kind to myself, because I’m kinder and more empathetic to others. It’s my nature, I suppose. So instead of treating myself, which I should do anyway, I decided that the highest form of self-kindness for me is to stop criticising myself.
I am over critical about everything I do – be it writing and illustrating books, my blog even things at home. I criticise myself all the way. I never think I’m good enough. I always push myself to work harder to be better, sometimes until breaking point. Breaking point for me is when I stop doing what I love all together, because I don’t think I’m doing the right thing in the right way.
Self-criticism and self-doubt go hand in hand, but I don’t want to give in to them anymore. So this week I’ve stopped criticising and doubting myself and my work. It wasn’t easy, because the old feelings crept up again. I’m aware of them now so I can check myself, before they consume my mind completely.
This has been one of the best weeks I’ve had in a while. I’ve accepted the work (books and blog posts) that I put out are the best I can do at this time. I feel happier and more at peace. I’m enjoying the Kindness Challenge so far and I can’t wait for what the next weeks will bring.
How has the Kindness Challenge Week 1 been for you so far? Do you give in to self-criticism and self-doubt, if so how do you overcome it? Let me know by commenting below!
Love and Blessings,